Assef snickered."He sounds likemymother,and she'sGerman; she shouldknowbetter.Butthenthey wantyouto believe that,don'tthey? They don'twantyou toknowthe truth."I didn'tknowwho"they"were,or whattruth they werehiding,and I didn'twantto find out.Iwished I hadn'tsaid anything.I wished again I'd look upand see Baba coming upthe hill"But you haveto read bookstheydon'tgive outin school"Assef said."I have.And myeyeshavebeenopened.NowIhavea vision,and I'mgoing toshareitwithournewpresident.Doyouknowwhatitis?"I shookmy head.He'd tellme anyway;Assefalways answered his own questionsHis blue eyes flicked to Hassan."Afghanistan is theland of Pashtuns.It alwayshas been,alwayswill be. We are thetrue Afghans,the pure Afghans,notthis Flat-Nosehere. His people polluteour homeland, our watan.They dirty our blood."He made a sweeping,grandiosegesture withhis hands."Afghanistan for Pashtuns,I say.That'smyvision."Assefshiftedhisgazetomeagain.Helooked likesomeonecomingoutofagooddream."ToolateforHitler"hesaid."But notforus."Hereachedfor somethingfromtheback pocket of his jeans."'llaskthepresidenttodo whatthekingdidn'thavethequwattodo.ToridAfghanistanofall thedirty,kasseefHazaras."Just let us go,Assef,"I said, hating the waymy voice trembled."We're not bothering you.""Oh,you're bothering me,Assef said.AndIsawwith a sinking heart what he had fished outofhis pocket.Ofcourse.His stainless-steelbrass knuckles sparkled in the sun."You're bothering mevery much.In fact, you bothermemore than this Hazara here.How can you talk to him,playwith him, let him touch you?"he said, his voice dripping with disgust. Wali and Kamal noddedandgruntedinagreement.Assefnarrowed hiseyes.Shookhishead.Whenhespokeagain,hesoundedasbaffledas he looked."Howcanyoucall himyour'friend'?"_But he's not myfriend!_Ialmost blurted._He's my servant!_Had I really thoughtthat? OfcourseIhadn't.Ihadn't.Itreated Hassan well, justlikeafriend, better even,more likea brother
Assef snickered. “He sounds like my mother, and she’s German; she should know better. But then they want you to believe that, don’t they? They don’t want you to know the truth.” I didn’t know who “they” were, or what truth they were hiding, and I didn’t want to find out. I wished I hadn’t said anything. I wished again I’d look up and see Baba coming up the hill. “But you have to read books they don’t give out in school,” Assef said. “I have. And my eyes have been opened. Now I have a vision, and I’m going to share it with our new president. Do you know what it is?” I shook my head. He’d tell me anyway; Assef always answered his own questions. His blue eyes flicked to Hassan. “Afghanistan is the land of Pashtuns. It always has been, always will be. We are the true Afghans, the pure Afghans, not this Flat-Nose here. His people pollute our homeland, our watan. They dirty our blood.” He made a sweeping, grandiose gesture with his hands. “Afghanistan for Pashtuns, I say. That’s my vision.” Assef shifted his gaze to me again. He looked like someone coming out of a good dream. “Too late for Hitler,” he said. “But not for us.” He reached for something from the back pocket of his jeans. “I’ll ask the president to do what the king didn’t have the quwat to do. To rid Afghanistan of all the dirty, kasseef Hazaras.” “Just let us go, Assef,” I said, hating the way my voice trembled. “We’re not bothering you.” “Oh, you’re bothering me,” Assef said. And I saw with a sinking heart what he had fished out of his pocket. Of course. His stainless-steel brass knuckles sparkled in the sun. “You’re bothering me very much. In fact, you bother me more than this Hazara here. How can you talk to him, play with him, let him touch you?” he said, his voice dripping with disgust. Wali and Kamal nodded and grunted in agreement. Assef narrowed his eyes. Shook his head. When he spoke again, he sounded as baffled as he looked. “How can you call him your ‘friend’?” _But he’s not my friend!_ I almost blurted. _He’s my servant!_ Had I really thought that? Of course I hadn’t. I hadn’t. I treated Hassan well, just like a friend, better even, more like a brother
But if so,then why,when Baba's friends cameto visit with theirkids, didn'tIever include Hassanin ourgames?Whydid I playwith Hassan onlywhenno oneelse was around?Assefslippedonthebrassknuckles.Gavemeanicylook."You'repartoftheproblem,Amir.Ifidiots likeyouandyourfatherdidn'ttakethesepeoplein,we'dberidofthembynow.They'dalljustgorot inHazarajatwheretheybelong.You'readisgracetoAfghanistan."I looked in his crazy eyes and saw that he meant it. He_really_ meant to hurt me. Assef raisedhisfistandcameformeTherewasaflurryofrapidmovementbehindme.Outofthecornerofmyeye,IsawHassanbend down and stand up quickly.Assef's eyes flicked to something behind me andwidened withsurprise.IsawthatsamelookolastonishmentonKamalandWali'sfacesastheytoosawwhathadhappenedbehindme.IturnedandcamefacetofacewithHassan'sslingshot.Hassanhadpulledthewideelasticbandallthe wayback.In thecup was a rock the size ofa walnut. Hassan held theslingshot pointeddirectlyatAssef'sface.Hishandtrembledwiththestrainofthepulledelasticbandandbeadsofsweathaderuptedonhisbrow"Please leave us alone, Agha,"Hassan said in a flattone. He'd referred to Assefas"Agha,andlwonderedbrieflywhatitmustbe liketo livewithsuchan ingrainedsenseofone'splace inahierarchy.Assefgrittedhisteeth."Putitdown,youmotherlessHazara.""Please leave us be, Agha,"Hassansaid.Assefsmiled."Maybeyoudidn'tnotice, butthereare threeofus and twoofyou."Hassan shrugged.To an outsider,he didn't look scared.But Hassan's face was myearliestmemoryandiknewallofitssubtlenuances,kneweachandeverytwitchandflickerthateverrippled across it. AndI sawthat he was scared.He was scared plenty
But if so, then why, when Baba’s friends came to visit with their kids, didn’t I ever include Hassan in our games? Why did I play with Hassan only when no one else was around? Assef slipped on the brass knuckles. Gave me an icy look. “You’re part of the problem, Amir. If idiots like you and your father didn’t take these people in, we’d be rid of them by now. They’d all just go rot in Hazarajat where they belong. You’re a disgrace to Afghanistan.” I looked in his crazy eyes and saw that he meant it. He _really_ meant to hurt me. Assef raised his fist and came for me. There was a flurry of rapid movement behind me. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Hassan bend down and stand up quickly. Assef’s eyes flicked to something behind me and widened with surprise. I saw that same look ol astonishment on Kamal and Wali’s faces as they too saw what had happened behind me. I turned and came face to face with Hassan’s slingshot. Hassan had pulled the wide elastic band all the way back. In the cup was a rock the size of a walnut. Hassan held the slingshot pointed directly at Assef’s face. His hand trembled with the strain of the pulled elastic band and beads of sweat had erupted on his brow. “Please leave us alone, Agha,” Hassan said in a flat tone. He’d referred to Assef as “Agha,” and I wondered briefly what it must be like to live with such an ingrained sense of one’s place in a hierarchy. Assef gritted his teeth. “Put it down, you motherless Hazara.” “Please leave us be, Agha,” Hassan said. Assef smiled. “Maybe you didn’t notice, but there are three of us and two of you.” Hassan shrugged. To an outsider, he didn’t look scared. But Hassan’s face was my earliest memory and I knew all of its subtle nuances, knew each and every twitch and flicker that ever rippled across it. And I saw that he was scared. He was scared plenty
"Youare right, Agha.But perhaps you didn'tnotice thatI'm the oneholding the slingshot.Ifyoumakeamove,they'll havetochangeyournicknamefromAssef'the EarEater'to'One-EyedAssef'becauseIhavethisrockpointedatyourlefteye."HesaidthissoflatlythatevenIhadtostrain to hearthe fear that Iknew hid underthat calm voice.Assef'smouthtwitched.WaliandKamalwatchedthisexchangewithsomethingakintofascination.Someonehadchallengedtheirgod.Humiliatedhim.And,worstofall,thatsomeonewasa skinny Hazara.Asseflooked fromthe rock to Hassan.He searched Hassan'sface intently.What hefound in it musthaveconvinced him of the seriousness of Hassan's intentions,becauseheloweredhisfist."Youshouldknow somethingaboutme, Hazara,"Assef said gravely."I'ma very patient person.This doesn'tend today, believe me." He turned to me.“This isn'tthe end for youeither, Amir.Someday,I'llmakeyoufacemeoneonone."Assefretreatedastep.Hisdisciplesfollowed"Your Hazara made a bigmistaketoday,Amir,"he said.Theythen turned around,walked awayIwatchedthemwalkdownthehillanddisappearbehindawallHassan wastrying to tuck the slingshot in his waist witha pair of trembling hands.His mouthcurledupintosomethingthatwassupposedtobeareassuringsmile.Ittookhimfivetriestotiethe string of histrousers.Neither one of us saidmuchof anything as we walked home intrepidation,certain that Assefand his friends would ambushus every time weturned a corner.Theydidn'tand that should havecomfortedus a little.But it didn't.Notatall.FORTHENEXTCOUPLEofyears,thewords_economicdevelopment_and_reform_dancedonalotof lipsinKabul.Theconstitutionalmonarchyhadbeenabolished,replacedbyarepublic,ledbyapresidentoftherepublic.Forawhile,asenseofrejuvenationandpurposesweptacrosstheland.Peoplespokeofwomen'srights andmoderntechnologyAndfor the mostpart, even thougha new leader lived in_Arg_--theroyal palace in Kabul--lifewentonasbefore.PeoplewenttoworkSaturdaythroughThursdayandgatheredforpicnicsonFridays in parks, on the banks ofGhargha Lake, in the gardens of Paghman.Multicolored busesand lorries flled withpassengers rolled throughthenarrowstreets of Kabul, led bythe constantshoutsofthedriverassistantswhostraddledthevehicles'rearbumpersandyelped directionstothedriver intheirthickKabuli accent.On_Eid_thethreedaysofcelebrationaftertheholymonth
“You are right, Agha. But perhaps you didn’t notice that I’m the one holding the slingshot. If you make a move, they’ll have to change your nickname from Assef ‘the Ear Eater’ to ‘One-Eyed Assef,’ because I have this rock pointed at your left eye.” He said this so flatly that even I had to strain to hear the fear that I knew hid under that calm voice. Assef’s mouth twitched. Wali and Kamal watched this exchange with something akin to fascination. Someone had challenged their god. Humiliated him. And, worst of all, that someone was a skinny Hazara. Assef looked from the rock to Hassan. He searched Hassan’s face intently. What he found in it must have convinced him of the seriousness of Hassan’s intentions, because he lowered his fist. “You should know something about me, Hazara,” Assef said gravely. “I’m a very patient person. This doesn’t end today, believe me.” He turned to me. “This isn’t the end for you either, Amir. Someday, I’ll make you face me one on one.” Assef retreated a step. His disciples followed. “Your Hazara made a big mistake today, Amir,” he said. They then turned around, walked away. I watched them walk down the hill and disappear behind a wall. Hassan was trying to tuck the slingshot in his waist with a pair of trembling hands. His mouth curled up into something that was supposed to be a reassuring smile. It took him five tries to tie the string of his trousers. Neither one of us said much of anything as we walked home in trepidation, certain that Assef and his friends would ambush us every time we turned a corner. They didn’t and that should have comforted us a little. But it didn’t. Not at all. FOR THE NEXT COUPLE of years, the words _economic development_ and _reform_ danced on a lot of lips in Kabul. The constitutional monarchy had been abolished, replaced by a republic, led by a president of the republic. For a while, a sense of rejuvenation and purpose swept across the land. People spoke of women’s rights and modern technology. And for the most part, even though a new leader lived in _Arg_-the royal palace in Kabul-life went on as before. People went to work Saturday through Thursday and gathered for picnics on Fridays in parks, on the banks of Ghargha Lake, in the gardens of Paghman. Multicolored buses and lorries filled with passengers rolled through the narrow streets of Kabul, led by the constant shouts of the driver assistants who straddled the vehicles’ rear bumpers and yelped directions to the driver in their thick Kabuli accent. On _Eid_, the three days of celebration after the holy month
of Ramadan,Kabulis dressed in their best andnewestclothes and visitedtheirfamilies.Peoplehugged andkissed and greeted each otherwith"_Eid Mubarak_"HappyEid.Children openedgifts and played with dyed hard-boiled eggs.Early that following winter of 1974,Hassan andI were playing in the yard one day, building asnowfort,whenAlicalledhimin."Hassan,Aghasahibwantstotalktoyou!"Hewasstandingbythefront door, dressed in white, hands tucked under his armpits, breath puffingfrom his mouth.Hassan andI exchanged a smile. We'd been waiting for his call all day: It was Hassan's birthday."What is it, Father, do you know?Will youtell us?" Hassan said. His eyes were gleaming.Ali shrugged."Agha sahib hasn't discussed it with me.""Come on, Ali, tell us,"I pressed."s it a drawing book?Maybe a new pistol?"LikeHassan,Ali was incapableof lying.Everyyear,hepretended nottoknowwhat Baba hadbought Hassan or me for our birthdays.And every year, his eyes betrayed him and we coaxed thegoods out of him. This time, though, it seemed he was telling the truth.BabanevermissedHassan'sbirthday.Forawhile,heusedtoask Hassanwhathewanted,buthegaveupdoing that because Hassan was alwaystoomodestto actually suggesta present.Soeverywinter Baba picked something out himself.Heboughthima Japanesetoytruck oneyear,an electric locomotive and train track set another year.The previous year, Baba had surprisedHassanwithaleathercowboyhatjustliketheoneClintEastwoodworeinTheGood,theBad,andtheUgly_--whichhadunseated_TheMagnificent Seven_as ourfavoriteWestern.Thatwholewinter,HassanandItookturnswearingthehat,and belted outthefilm'sfamousmusicasweclimbedmoundsofsnowandshoteachotherdead.Wetookoffourglovesandremovedoursnow-ladenbootsatthefrontdoor.Whenwesteppedinto thefoyer,wefound Baba sitting by the wood-burning cast-iron stovewitha short,baldingIndianmandressed inabrownsuitandredtie."Hassan,Baba said, smiling coyly,"meet your birthdaypresent
of Ramadan, Kabulis dressed in their best and newest clothes and visited their families. People hugged and kissed and greeted each other with “_Eid Mubarak_.” Happy Eid. Children opened gifts and played with dyed hard-boiled eggs. Early that following winter of 1974, Hassan and I were playing in the yard one day, building a snow fort, when Ali called him in. “Hassan, Agha sahib wants to talk to you!” He was standing by the front door, dressed in white, hands tucked under his armpits, breath puffing from his mouth. Hassan and I exchanged a smile. We’d been waiting for his call all day: It was Hassan’s birthday. “What is it, Father, do you know? Will you tell us?” Hassan said. His eyes were gleaming. Ali shrugged. “Agha sahib hasn’t discussed it with me.” “Come on, Ali, tell us,” I pressed. “Is it a drawing book? Maybe a new pistol?” Like Hassan, Ali was incapable of lying. Every year, he pretended not to know what Baba had bought Hassan or me for our birthdays. And every year, his eyes betrayed him and we coaxed the goods out of him. This time, though, it seemed he was telling the truth. Baba never missed Hassan’s birthday. For a while, he used to ask Hassan what he wanted, but he gave up doing that because Hassan was always too modest to actually suggest a present. So every winter Baba picked something out himself. He bought him a Japanese toy truck one year, an electric locomotive and train track set another year. The previous year, Baba had surprised Hassan with a leather cowboy hat just like the one Clint Eastwood wore in _The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly_-which had unseated _The Magnificent Seven_ as our favorite Western. That whole winter, Hassan and I took turns wearing the hat, and belted out the film’s famous music as we climbed mounds of snow and shot each other dead. We took off our gloves and removed our snow-laden boots at the front door. When we stepped into the foyer, we found Baba sitting by the wood-burning cast-iron stove with a short, balding Indian man dressed in a brown suit and red tie. “Hassan,” Baba said, smiling coyly, “meet your birthday present
Hassan andItraded blank looks.Therewasnogift-wrappedboxin sight.Nobag.No toy.JustAlistandingbehind us,and Babawiththis slight Indianfellowwholookeda littlelikeamathematicsteacher.TheIndianmaninthebrownsuitsmiledandofferedHassanhishand."IamDr.Kumar"hesaid"it'sa pleasure to meet you."He spoke Farsi witha thick, rolling Hindi accent."_Salaam alaykum"Hassan said uncertainly.He gavea polite tip of the head, but his eyessoughthis father behind him.Ali moved closer and set his hand on Hassan'sshoulder.BabametHassan'swary--andpuzzled--eyes."IhavesummonedDr.KumarfromNewDelhi.DrKumarisaplasticsurgeon.""Do you knowwhatthat is?" the Indian man--Dr.Kumar--said.Hassanshookhishead.HelookedtomeforhelpbutIshrugged.All Iknewwasthatyouwenttoa surgeontofixyouwhenyouhadappendicitis.Iknewthisbecauseoneofmyclassmateshaddied of it the year before and the teacher had told us they had waited toolong to take him to asurgeon.Webothlooked to Ali, butof course withhimyou could never tell. His face wasimpassive as ever, though something sober had melted into his eyes."Well" Dr.Kumarsaid,"my jobis to fix things on people's bodies.Sometimes their faces.""Oh,Hassansaid.HelookedfromDr.KumartoBabatoAli.Hishandtouchedhisupperlip"Oh,"hesaidagain."It'san unusualpresent,Iknow,"Baba said."Andprobablynot whatyouhad inmind,but thispresentwill lastyouforever.""Oh," Hassan said. He licked his lips. Cleared his throat."Agha sahib, will it... will it--
Hassan and I traded blank looks. There was no gift-wrapped box in sight. No bag. No toy. Just Ali standing behind us, and Baba with this slight Indian fellow who looked a little like a mathematics teacher. The Indian man in the brown suit smiled and offered Hassan his hand. “I am Dr. Kumar,” he said. “It’s a pleasure to meet you.” He spoke Farsi with a thick, rolling Hindi accent. “_Salaam alaykum_,” Hassan said uncertainly. He gave a polite tip of the head, but his eyes sought his father behind him. Ali moved closer and set his hand on Hassan’s shoulder. Baba met Hassan’s wary-and puzzled-eyes. “I have summoned Dr. Kumar from New Delhi. Dr. Kumar is a plastic surgeon.” “Do you know what that is?” the Indian man-Dr. Kumar-said. Hassan shook his head. He looked to me for help but I shrugged. All I knew was that you went to a surgeon to fix you when you had appendicitis. I knew this because one of my classmates had died of it the year before and the teacher had told us they had waited too long to take him to a surgeon. We both looked to Ali, but of course with him you could never tell. His face was impassive as ever, though something sober had melted into his eyes. “Well,” Dr. Kumar said, “my job is to fix things on people’s bodies. Sometimes their faces.” “Oh,” Hassan said. He looked from Dr. Kumar to Baba to Ali. His hand touched his upper lip. “Oh,” he said again. “It’s an unusual present, I know,” Baba said. “And probably not what you had in mind, but this present will last you forever.” “Oh,” Hassan said. He licked his lips. Cleared his throat. “Agha sahib, will it. will it-