the dark-haired girl behind him.Vivid,beautiful hallucina- tions flashed through his mind.He would flog her to death with a rubber truncheon.He would tie her naked to a stake and shoot her full of arrows like Saint Sebastian.He would ravish her and cut her throat at the moment of climax.Bet- ter than before,moreover,he realized WHY it was that he hated her.He hated her because she was young and pretty and sexless,because he wanted to go to bed with her and would never do so,because round her sweet supple waist, which seemed to ask you to encircle it with your arm,there was only the odious scarlet sash,aggressive symbol of chas- tity. The Hate rose to its climax.The voice of Goldstein had become an actual sheep's bleat,and for an instant the face changed into that ofa sheep.Then the sheep-face melted into the figure of a Eurasian soldier who seemed to be advancing, huge and terrible,his sub-machine gun roaring,and seem- ing to spring out of the surface of the screen,so that some of the people in the front row actually flinched backwards in their seats.But in the same moment,drawing a deep sigh of relief from everybody,the hostile figure melted into the face of Big Brother,black-haired,black-moustachio'd,full of power and mysterious calm,and so vast that it almost filled up the screen.Nobody heard what Big Brother was saying.It was merely a few words of encouragement,the sort of words that are uttered in the din of battle,not distin- guishable individually but restoring confidence by the fact of being spoken.Then the face of Big Brother faded away again,and instead the three slogans of the Party stood out 20 1984
20 1984 the dark-haired girl behind him. Vivid, beautiful hallucinations flashed through his mind. He would flog her to death with a rubber truncheon. He would tie her naked to a stake and shoot her full of arrows like Saint Sebastian. He would ravish her and cut her throat at the moment of climax. Better than before, moreover, he realized WHY it was that he hated her. He hated her because she was young and pretty and sexless, because he wanted to go to bed with her and would never do so, because round her sweet supple waist, which seemed to ask you to encircle it with your arm, there was only the odious scarlet sash, aggressive symbol of chastity. The Hate rose to its climax. The voice of Goldstein had become an actual sheep’s bleat, and for an instant the face changed into that of a sheep. Then the sheep-face melted into the figure of a Eurasian soldier who seemed to be advancing, huge and terrible, his sub-machine gun roaring, and seeming to spring out of the surface of the screen, so that some of the people in the front row actually flinched backwards in their seats. But in the same moment, drawing a deep sigh of relief from everybody, the hostile figure melted into the face of Big Brother, black-haired, black-moustachio’d, full of power and mysterious calm, and so vast that it almost filled up the screen. Nobody heard what Big Brother was saying. It was merely a few words of encouragement, the sort of words that are uttered in the din of battle, not distinguishable individually but restoring confidence by the fact of being spoken. Then the face of Big Brother faded away again, and instead the three slogans of the Party stood out
in bold capitals: WAR IS PEACE FREEDOM IS SLAVERY IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH But the face of Big Brother seemed to persist for sever- al seconds on the screen,as though the impact that it had made on everyone's eyeballs was too vivid to wear off im- mediately.The little sandy-haired woman had flung herself forward over the back of the chair in front of her.With a tremulous murmur that sounded like 'My Saviour!'she ex- tended her arms towards the screen.Then she buried her face in her hands.It was apparent that she was uttering a prayer. At this moment the entire group of people broke into a deep,slow,rhythmical chant of 'B-B!...B-B!'-over and over again,very slowly,with a long pause between the first 'B' and the second-a heavy,murmurous sound,somehow curiously savage,in the background of which one seemed to hear the stamp of naked feet and the throbbing of tom- toms.For perhaps as much as thirty seconds they kept it up.It was a refrain that was often heard in moments of overwhelming emotion.Partly it was a sort of hymn to the wisdom and majesty of Big Brother,but still more it was an act of self-hypnosis,a deliberate drowning of conscious- ness by means of rhythmic noise.Winston's entrails seemed to grow cold.In the Two Minutes Hate he could not help sharing in the general delirium,but this sub-human chant- FREE EBOOKS AT PLANET EBOOK.COM 21
Free eBooks at Planet eBook.com 21 in bold capitals: WAR IS PEACE FREEDOM IS SLAVERY IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH But the face of Big Brother seemed to persist for several seconds on the screen, as though the impact that it had made on everyone’s eyeballs was too vivid to wear off immediately. The little sandy-haired woman had flung herself forward over the back of the chair in front of her. With a tremulous murmur that sounded like ‘My Saviour!’ she extended her arms towards the screen. Then she buried her face in her hands. It was apparent that she was uttering a prayer. At this moment the entire group of people broke into a deep, slow, rhythmical chant of ‘B-B!...B-B!’—over and over again, very slowly, with a long pause between the first ‘B’ and the second—a heavy, murmurous sound, somehow curiously savage, in the background of which one seemed to hear the stamp of naked feet and the throbbing of tomtoms. For perhaps as much as thirty seconds they kept it up. It was a refrain that was often heard in moments of overwhelming emotion. Partly it was a sort of hymn to the wisdom and majesty of Big Brother, but still more it was an act of self-hypnosis, a deliberate drowning of consciousness by means of rhythmic noise. Winston’s entrails seemed to grow cold. In the Two Minutes Hate he could not help sharing in the general delirium, but this sub-human chant-
ing of 'B-B!...B-B!'always filled him with horror.Of course he chanted with the rest:it was impossible to do otherwise. To dissemble your feelings,to control your face,to do what everyone else was doing,was an instinctive reaction.But there was a space of a couple of seconds during which the expression of his eyes might conceivably have betrayed him. And it was exactly at this moment that the significant thing happened-if,indeed,it did happen. Momentarily he caught O'Brien's eye.O'Brien had stood up.He had taken off his spectacles and was in the act of resettling them on his nose with his characteristic gesture. But there was a fraction of a second when their eyes met, and for as long as it took to happen Winston knew-yes,he KNEW!-that O'Brien was thinking the same thing as him- self.An unmistakable message had passed.It was as though their two minds had opened and the thoughts were flowing from one into the other through their eyes.I am with you, O'Brien seemed to be saying to him.'I know precisely what you are feeling.I know all about your contempt,your ha- tred,your disgust.But don't worry,I am on your side!'And then the flash of intelligence was gone,and O'Brien's face was as inscrutable as everybody else's. That was all,and he was already uncertain whether it had happened.Such incidents never had any sequel.All that they did was to keep alive in him the belief,or hope,that oth- ers besides himself were the enemies of the Party.Perhaps the rumours of vast underground conspiracies were true after all-perhaps the Brotherhood really existed!It was impossible,in spite of the endless arrests and confessions 22 1984
22 1984 ing of ‘B-B!...B-B!’ always filled him with horror. Of course he chanted with the rest: it was impossible to do otherwise. To dissemble your feelings, to control your face, to do what everyone else was doing, was an instinctive reaction. But there was a space of a couple of seconds during which the expression of his eyes might conceivably have betrayed him. And it was exactly at this moment that the significant thing happened—if, indeed, it did happen. Momentarily he caught O’Brien’s eye. O’Brien had stood up. He had taken off his spectacles and was in the act of resettling them on his nose with his characteristic gesture. But there was a fraction of a second when their eyes met, and for as long as it took to happen Winston knew—yes, he KNEW!—that O’Brien was thinking the same thing as himself. An unmistakable message had passed. It was as though their two minds had opened and the thoughts were flowing from one into the other through their eyes. ‘I am with you,’ O’Brien seemed to be saying to him. ‘I know precisely what you are feeling. I know all about your contempt, your hatred, your disgust. But don’t worry, I am on your side!’ And then the flash of intelligence was gone, and O’Brien’s face was as inscrutable as everybody else’s. That was all, and he was already uncertain whether it had happened. Such incidents never had any sequel. All that they did was to keep alive in him the belief, or hope, that others besides himself were the enemies of the Party. Perhaps the rumours of vast underground conspiracies were true after all—perhaps the Brotherhood really existed! It was impossible, in spite of the endless arrests and confessions
and executions,to be sure that the Brotherhood was not simply a myth.Some days he believed in it,some days not. There was no evidence,only fleeting glimpses that might mean anything or nothing:snatches of overheard conver- sation,faint scribbles on lavatory walls-once,even,when two strangers met,a small movement of the hand which had looked as though it might be a signal of recognition.It was all guesswork:very likely he had imagined everything. He had gone back to his cubicle without looking at O'Brien again.The idea of following up their momentary contact hardly crossed his mind.It would have been inconceivably dangerous even if he had known how to set about doing it. For a second,two seconds,they had exchanged an equivo- cal glance,and that was the end of the story.But even that was a memorable event,in the locked loneliness in which one had to live. Winston roused himself and sat up straighter.He let out a belch.The gin was rising from his stomach. His eyes re-focused on the page.He discovered that while he sat helplessly musing he had also been writing,as though by automatic action.And it was no longer the same cramped,awkward handwriting as before.His pen had slid voluptuously over the smooth paper,printing in large neat capitals-DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER over and over again,filling half a page. He could not help feeling a twinge of panic.It was ab- surd,since the writing of those particular words was not FREE EBOOKS AT PLANET EBOOK.COM 23
Free eBooks at Planet eBook.com 23 and executions, to be sure that the Brotherhood was not simply a myth. Some days he believed in it, some days not. There was no evidence, only fleeting glimpses that might mean anything or nothing: snatches of overheard conversation, faint scribbles on lavatory walls—once, even, when two strangers met, a small movement of the hand which had looked as though it might be a signal of recognition. It was all guesswork: very likely he had imagined everything. He had gone back to his cubicle without looking at O’Brien again. The idea of following up their momentary contact hardly crossed his mind. It would have been inconceivably dangerous even if he had known how to set about doing it. For a second, two seconds, they had exchanged an equivocal glance, and that was the end of the story. But even that was a memorable event, in the locked loneliness in which one had to live. Winston roused himself and sat up straighter. He let out a belch. The gin was rising from his stomach. His eyes re-focused on the page. He discovered that while he sat helplessly musing he had also been writing, as though by automatic action. And it was no longer the same cramped, awkward handwriting as before. His pen had slid voluptuously over the smooth paper, printing in large neat capitals—DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER over and over again, filling half a page. He could not help feeling a twinge of panic. It was absurd, since the writing of those particular words was not
more dangerous than the initial act of opening the diary, but for a moment he was tempted to tear out the spoiled pages and abandon the enterprise altogether. He did not do so,however,because he knew that it was useless.Whether he wrote DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER, or whether he refrained from writing it,made no differ- ence.Whether he went on with the diary,or whether he did not go on with it,made no difference.The Thought Police would get him just the same.He had committed-would still have committed,even if he had never set pen to pa- per-the essential crime that contained all others in itself. Thoughtcrime,they called it.Thoughtcrime was not a thing that could be concealed for ever.You might dodge success- fully for a while,even for years,but sooner or later they were bound to get you. It was always at night-the arrests invariably happened at night.The sudden jerk out of sleep,the rough hand shak- ing your shoulder,the lights glaring in your eyes,the ring of hard faces round the bed.In the vast majority of cases there was no trial,no report of the arrest.People simply disap- peared,always during the night.Your name was removed from the registers,every record of everything you had ever done was wiped out,your one-time existence was denied and then forgotten.You were abolished,annihilated:VA- PORIZED was the usual word. For a moment he was seized by a kind of hysteria.He be- gan writing in a hurried untidy scrawl: theyll shoot me i don't care theyll shoot me in the back of the 1984
24 1984 more dangerous than the initial act of opening the diary, but for a moment he was tempted to tear out the spoiled pages and abandon the enterprise altogether. He did not do so, however, because he knew that it was useless. Whether he wrote DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER, or whether he refrained from writing it, made no difference. Whether he went on with the diary, or whether he did not go on with it, made no difference. The Thought Police would get him just the same. He had committed—would still have committed, even if he had never set pen to paper—the essential crime that contained all others in itself. Thoughtcrime, they called it. Thoughtcrime was not a thing that could be concealed for ever. You might dodge successfully for a while, even for years, but sooner or later they were bound to get you. It was always at night—the arrests invariably happened at night. The sudden jerk out of sleep, the rough hand shaking your shoulder, the lights glaring in your eyes, the ring of hard faces round the bed. In the vast majority of cases there was no trial, no report of the arrest. People simply disappeared, always during the night. Your name was removed from the registers, every record of everything you had ever done was wiped out, your one-time existence was denied and then forgotten. You were abolished, annihilated: VAPORIZED was the usual word. For a moment he was seized by a kind of hysteria. He began writing in a hurried untidy scrawl: theyll shoot me i don’t care theyll shoot me in the back of the