Detailed Reading 17."Something inside me is going thru this funny,alien state,a sense of being at the mercy of some strange force, and this pathetic scarecrow figure inside me at the mercy of other forces.My stomach is empty and gnawing and uneasy as if anything could fall in and break the superstructure I hold up with all my force." 18.Kathy did go off to college.The trauma of her breakdown there was followed by the deadening travail of the long search for a psychiatric solution.Then,a decade of daily life in the huge psychiatric hospital,the "crazy house"as she always called it.In those years,she has never been able to draw a deep breath full of good life. Question Translation
17. "Something inside me is going thru this funny, alien state, a sense of being at the mercy of some strange force, and this pathetic scarecrow figure inside me at the mercy of other forces. My stomach is empty and gnawing and uneasy as if anything could fall in and break the superstructure I hold up with all my force." 18. Kathy did go off to college. The trauma of her breakdown there was followed by the deadening travail of the long search for a psychiatric solution. Then, a decade of daily life in the huge psychiatric hospital, the "crazy house" as she always called it. In those years, she has never been able to draw a deep breath full of good life. Detailed Reading
Detailed Reading 19.The daughter I would have had -were it not for this evil illness -exists in embryo in the daughter I do have.After an outburst,she will come and tell me quietly:"I am sorry, mother.I don't want to fight with you. 20."Thank you,"she will say:"for giving me a good day." 21.To admit the truth,sometimes I trigger her outburst.Like Tuesday,when I came upon her pouring coffee straight from the jar,half filling her cup with the powder and splattering grains over the counter.I ordered her,peremptorily:"Get a spoon,Kathy.Can't you do things normally once in a while!" Translation
19. The daughter I would have had — were it not for this evil illness — exists in embryo in the daughter I do have. After an outburst, she will come and tell me quietly: "I am sorry, mother. I don't want to fight with you." 20. "Thank you," she will say: "for giving me a good day." 21. To admit the truth, sometimes I trigger her outburst. Like Tuesday, when I came upon her pouring coffee straight from the jar, half filling her cup with the powder and splattering grains over the counter. I ordered her, peremptorily: "Get a spoon, Kathy. Can't you do things normally once in a while!" Detailed Reading
Detailed Reading 22.She whirled and,in a shrill tone,screamed:"I am sick of you always telling me what to do.I am an adult and I don't need you to tell me when to go to bed and when to get up." Hysteria building up,she shouted:"You drive everyone to the edge of hemophiliac absurdity!"Magnetic waves of burning energy rushed from her,hit me and I lashed back,"Get out of this house,Kathy.RIGHT NOW,get out!" 23.Later,in the evening,she almost whispers to me:"I've washed my hair,done my nails,and I've cleaned up the dinner dishes.I feel much better now."And I feel sad and ashamed.I know her greatest wish is to live with me all of the time,to have me take care of her,cook her good meals every day as I do these two weeks on the island. Question Translation
22. She whirled and, in a shrill tone, screamed: "I am sick of you always telling me what to do. I am an adult and I don't need you to tell me when to go to bed and when to get up." Hysteria building up, she shouted: "You drive everyone to the edge of hemophiliac absurdity!" Magnetic waves of burning energy rushed from her, hit me and I lashed back, "Get out of this house, Kathy. RIGHT NOW, get out!" 23. Later, in the evening, she almost whispers to me: "I've washed my hair, done my nails, and I've cleaned up the dinner dishes. I feel much better now." And I feel sad and ashamed. I know her greatest wish is to live with me all of the time, to have me take care of her, cook her good meals every day as I do these two weeks on the island. Detailed Reading
Detailed Reading 24.That I will not do.I must live my own life.But I will give her the small chunks of time:the island for two weeks in summer;at home with me at Christmas;a trip to Florida to see her grandparents.I will also allow myself to resent it sometimes.Like my daughter,like all other human beings,I am not spun of one thread.I love and hate the same person.I am responsible and irresponsible.I will do the best I can with the worst I have to live with. Question Translation
24. That I will not do. I must live my own life. But I will give her the small chunks of time: the island for two weeks in summer; at home with me at Christmas; a trip to Florida to see her grandparents. I will also allow myself to resent it sometimes. Like my daughter, like all other human beings, I am not spun of one thread. I love and hate the same person. I am responsible and irresponsible. I will do the best I can with the worst I have to live with. Detailed Reading
Detailed Reading Paragraph 1-8 Analysis These paragraphs,the beginning part of the narrative, describe and vividly recount two typical events concerning the chief character's unusual behavior and the writer's response to it.For the sake of vivid effect,dynamic verbs and metaphorical expressions are employed.From these paragraphs,we can see sudden changes in the chief character's behavior and in the writer's attitude towards her daughter
Paragraph 1-8 Analysis These paragraphs, the beginning part of the narrative, describe and vividly recount two typical events concerning the chief character's unusual behavior and the writer's response to it. For the sake of vivid effect, dynamic verbs and metaphorical expressions are employed. From these paragraphs, we can see sudden changes in the chief character's behavior and in the writer's attitude towards her daughter. Detailed Reading